We spent all day yesterday at a Boy Scout Family Campout, hence the lack of posts. We didn’t actually spend the night either night, just went for the day. It was a blast, and it was enough.
So today I’ve just now been thinking about my new task for the week. At first, I’ll admit, my mind was blank. I have so very far to go to get this house completely in order. I’m also not feeling on top of things. This past week was pretty normal, which was nice after the week of the wedding, but with me being sick for two days, I still feel a little “out of control.” The laundry check being part of my evening routine worked very well, but it still feels like I could completely forget about it and go days before I remember that I was supposed to do that. Basically, it is nowhere near a habit at this point.
So what to add? I’m feeling the clutter-creep. I don’t think I’m staying on top of it or being as aware as I should be. Just today I realized that something of my daughter’s had been sitting outside her door for several days. In the course of a 5 minute walk-through, I had put it there because she was napping. But then, I never moved it into her room, or asked her to. When I was consciously looking, I saw it and realized that I HAD noticed it many times, but hadn’t thought to stop and take care of it. This is what scares me. It’s my normal, old habits happening.
I thought that maybe I should add an additional 5 minute check to my evening routine. And then I realized something. I was thinking about appearances. I was thinking about how I would come across on the blog. I didn’t want to admit the truth, which is that I haven’t been as focused on my 5 minute pickups as I should. I’ve done them, looking around and picking things up. But I haven’t been focused enough. Sometimes I’ll sit to write my daily checklist post and I’ll think, “yeah, I did that.” Instead of adding an additional pickup time, even though I think that eventually I should, I need to renew my focus on the one I already do.
This week, I’m going to physically get up off of my behind in the middle of my daily checklist posts and have a totally focused 5 minute pickup time.
I have to admit when I’m slacking. That’s what this blog is about. Yes, my house has been sooooo much better than it used to be. Yes, the haphazard 5 minute pickup times were making a difference. But the clutter was creeping. I wasn’t being as conscious in my effort as when I first added that task. So, I’m working on it, again.
I’ve said many times that if you’re looking for a place for advice on getting your house organized, this really isn’t it. What I hope you will get is honesty from someone who struggles at least 10x more than the average person. Someone who has real issues and has real agony over not being able to keep my house in order.
I can’t worry about impressing anyone. This process that I’m going through is about being honest with myself. I have to keep refocusing, because it’s so easy with my personality to lose that focus.